I don’t know if I can even describe the look on his face, but his eyes are burning with flames and I feel the heat from them scorch me as his eyes roam my body.
I’m running my hands through the bubbles, lost in thought when Phoenix walks back into the bathroom empty handed. And the more I think of it the more I realize this is exactly what I want. But it’s something I must let go of if we’re going to try to make this work between us. My baby boy has gone four years without knowing his daddy because of them and the more I think about the more pissed off it makes me. It’s been a lonely four years without him and whenever I think about all the shit they put us through my heart squeezes in my chest. I’ll never tell him just how much I’ve missed that endearment of his. I’ve never been able to understand her or any decisions she made. Oh, he knows they don’t like me because of all this but I mean he has no clue to how bad it was. I never let on to Phoenix how bad it was and as far as I know, to this day he still has no clue. When they were over, and the tension became too much I would just make excuses and go home. I also wasn’t looking to replace them in his eyes, so I could never figure it out. Never thought they really hated me that much. I honestly never thought they would take it as far as they did though. I can’t say I’m surprised about Eric and the guys having something to do with it.
After hearing the truth, I don’t know what to feel anymore.
Four years I’ve thought he cheated on me with her and at most times I’ve hated him for it. My mind is running ninety miles an hour trying to process everything that he told me anyhow. If the man wants to take care of me then who am I to stop him. I relax back in the tub and close my eyes.
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